in life there are time we can say we had everything and we can say we are happy about it and we don't want anything else. but upon saying that it will hit you and hit you hard... you'll realized you still don't have everything and you will meet someone who there you will see everything you ever ever wanted.
when meeting this someone you will feel alive, happy and most important you will feel you think you can do it all... your more like superhero where you just learned that you have ability that you have not know and from there you will focus your strength and might to attain that goal and not to loose that euphoria. because it makes you feel good... so good you feel like walking on clouds that you look down and nothing will ever brings you down and you can stay up-float for days and for years to come. you feel so good in your life that your happiness gauge goes berserk and it will reach its limit that is infinity...nothing will spoil your day your life your aura and your happiness... until that day..
but reality is not always honey and sugar... not everyday is christmas day and not everyday is your day... sooner or later that ghost of the past will hunt you and will slowly creeps on you... it will slowly consumes you and slowly devouring you from with in... and next thing you know your in too deep you can't get out you cant stay up float and you cant stay in sane... you sanity will slowly leave you and will slowly eats you... you will find yourself crying and laughing at the same time... you see yourself going away but you left there were you stand... thats reality...
you will pretend not to feel a thing if this time come and you will keep on doing your routine of happiness... but this time its no longer happy but instead is a burden... a burden you have to carry and endure for its your life and you cant do about it...whats nice is that it will keep on growing and will keep on consuming you... it will always be there by your side... you would wish to end it but it will not let you it will stop you form committing this that will end it as well... it will reach a point where he will keep you alive in order for it be alive... and from an aura full of color it will just turn in to one color but dark... it will eat you... it will consumes you... it will kill you alive... but not entirely dead... but dying where you can feel everything over and over and over again... for in the real life it sucks that reality and that was keep us alive/dead...
at this point your not you anymore... but more of your the one you don't want to be it could have been avoided but it does not avoid you...instead it you will pass this path and you will have to go through with it... often some people does not mind it for they have output such as friends, family and love ones who can help you along the way... if that's the case your the lucky ones for there are things in this life you must have because if you don't have your dead...
that what happend's to me and is happening to me right now... i have been dead raise up and now killed again... hey lets look at the bright side THERE IS NONE. hahaha