Sex Without Love*

A pleasure we do out of love for the other person
We our sharing the sexual experiment with
When the innocent become the intimate

It’s when that passion of love turns into a hobby
Then into an obsession and then that turns into a have to have
You can’t stop thinking about your next fix
You look for it everywhere in everyone
You start having withdraws from it
You wonder how you got this way
So dependent on it to get you through the day
You think it’s the only thing that your good at
The guys keep coming and going like fire
At times when it hurts so bad you cant do anything
You tell yourself no more not another time
But as soon as soon as your better
Your right back at it
You ask yourself
Why you do this every time
You just don’t understand
It’s as if your being sexualy
Taken advantage by your own body

You wanna tear your hair our if your not doing it
The people just keep getting older while your still the same age
Started 2-3 years now it doesn’t really matter how old as long as you get the fix
You have to do it
It is your drug
Your Acid

People have been telling you for months that you need help
The people that know you the real you
This isn’t the real you and you know it
You can feel it
The lying
The addiction
The lack of pride you have for your body and self
It’s not you
It’s like he said right before he left
How does it feel to be trash now that you are trash,
And now you are truly trash.
You are not trash this is not you

You know how this started a young women lost within her broken hearted emotions
You just know you don’t know how to stop it
You now need help
Lots of help
Cause sitting here
Your itching to do it again
And pleading someone help
HELP! ! ! PLEASE! ! ! HELP! ! !
You don’t wanna be like this forever

Crystal Midnight

Your Hearts Desire

love defined as by google search

• a strong positive emotion of regard and affection
• any object of warm affection or devotion
• have a great affection or liking for
• get pleasure from
• a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction
• be enamored or in love with

this are some definition of love but what is love?
how about lets define love by age... form 4 - 8 love is defined as:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."

Rebecca - age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."

Billy - age 4

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."

Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."

Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."

Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."

Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."

Nikka - age 6

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."

Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."

Tommy - age 6

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."

Chris - age 7

to all of this examples its better to be 4 or 8, for love to them is simpler and less complicated...
for us grown up when did we lost this notion and definition of love in us. if only we have retained this and see love as this children do and maybe our life should have been much more simpler rather than complicated. maybe from then own our hearts desire should have been more attainable...

My First Post

Before i post anything here i wish you who ever reads this one to know something about me...

i am the middle in siblings of 3 and i have a sister and brother whom i have seen for quite sometime. i am 29 years old and yes that is my real age and i am not ashamed... hehehe i have finished a bachelor degree and i am working here somewhere in the middle east.

i am a father to a son, a son to a my parents and i want it to keep that way.
i have few hobbies and i don't do sports, i hate getting sweaty and its not fun for me chasing some ball...

i am a silent type of person and if you don't talk to me i don't talk to you... what u see is what you get for now... some says i am immature but what is maturity?

thank you,